I have no idea.
Sleep right. Eat right. Take stupid pills to help with the hormones.
God promises that He will keep my soul.
Martyrs filled their minds with a picture of Eternity with Christ. Nothing else matters in that perspective.
Do my feelings matter? I have no idea. Feelings and emotions are not truth. I suppose they are either a blessing or a curse. Rejoice in the blessings, endure the cursings.
Life is for God to give and take… I suppose that means it does matter. But eternity matters more.